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Writing and Reading: Attempting to be Immortal and Travel the Time

Have you ever wondered why humans came up with the idea of inventing symbolic coding to communicate in written form until finally languages we have been familiar with now were born out of it? How was it before our ancestors figure out the concept of words, or even further, letters?

One more question: Which one came first? reading, or writing?

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P.S.: This is not book review

 

If you, by any chance, have done such contemplation and still, up to now, think of reasons behind the creation of written form of communication with its various symbols, then you probably need to read the book I have shown above this write-up.

Harari briefly explains the logical scientific reasons behind the idea of recording information in the form of writing. Some of you must be familiar with the concept of short-term and long-term memory, or in more technical terms, short-term memory is also known as processing memory in where the information is being processed before finally filtered and stored in the long-term memory. However, it is also obvious to most of us, realize it or don’t, that the processing memory is very limited in the sense of capturing and holding the storm of information and knowledge.

If I may put an analogy to it, you simply cannot hold your shopping items for a whole month with your bare-hands. You will drop and spoil so many things unless you bring something you can use to aid you handling the whole things. Similar to that, our short term memory was not created to remember every single input entering our brain. It has a limited span in where more information will be forgotten should they are not recorded. Thus, putting it down in a stone tablet in the form of symbols was what our ancestors did far before the alphabets and other form of written coding existed. By doing so, they could record and list out information and more than that, they helped themselves in more activities such as trading in where they could use the symbolic writing to represent the type of item and the amount they desired to trade.

The other significance of putting down information in written form is that opening chance to passed the knowledge or information through different generations. As a linear consequence to that, the writer, of any form of writing, will be remembered. The more you write, the more you allow people to explore the world, the time and you yourself which makes them remember you and experience what you have experienced during your time. Time machine might and would never been invented but there is at least simple way to travel the time: read. 

From what Harari explains in his book, that I still recommend you to read, and what my thought has just whispered to me about time travelling through reading and writing, we can comprehend the importance of writing as well as reading. The last word I’ve wrote on the previous sentence will not exist if our ancestors didn’t come up with the idea of recording information in the format of writing, or should we call it drawing since it is highly illustrative back then? And also, writing itself will be meaningless should nobody reads and attempted to travel the time and explore the multiple dimensions by reading what have been written.

Thus, start reading to explore multiple dimensions, and start writing to be immortal.

Cheers, happy International Literacy day.

 

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India: It is Surely Incredible, Though

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Despite the horrible things I mentioned previously, this country is actually not completely messed-up. You may have thought that I was being sarcastic on my previous write-up when I said the madness makes India an incredible country. Well, it was mostly sarcastic, but actually there was something that everyone could learn from what I have written previously: If you survive in India and her incredibility, you will grow much stronger than before. Living in such countries will build your mentality to be more open minded, grateful, sensible and obviously patient.

That is one out of several good things about this country: As a foreign students, India teaches me to survive in the way I do not even want to imagine in real life. What I have in mind about wasteland is only expected to exist in video games, but here I am. This is not sarcasm. I mean it. Survival skill improvement is very essential aspect of living in India. Now we go to the other great aspects of this country.

Super Affordable Living Cost

If you have ever heard some people said that living in India is very inexpensive, they are right and I would like to convince you once more. I live in my campus flat and mostly cook by myself. I do hangout once a week with my Indonesian fellows. Guess how much money do I spend for a month only for living including the flat rent? Not more than Rs.10.000. If you have no idea about Indian currency, it is equal to US$ 147. Sometimes I spend less than that. India is a country where you can live properly for a week with only 30 bucks.

Books are Very Cheap

I talked to some local students and they have the opposite perspective about this one. They find books are expensive while for me and other foreign students, books in India are much cheaper than the ones in my country. Most books that I have bought here cost me less than Rs. 500. Thus, my side mission here is clear: Collecting books that I always want to have but I cannot afford because of the very high prices in my country.

The Diversities Enrich You

I am not new to cultural or language diversities for I used to spend 22 years of my life in a country where each region has its own language and customs. However, knowing different cultures, language and customs will make you a more open minded person. You will decrease the stereotypical thoughts in your mind if you have more understanding about different cultures and habits around the world. If you are a foreigner who accidentally or intentionally lives in India for the first time, you will realize that the people here are not only using Hindi and English to communicate. They have different languages in different states and different customs indeed. I live in Hyderabad, a city in a state called Telangana where Hindi is rarely used. Telugu or English only. So, please don’t ask how well I speak Hindi after my time in India.

The Taste of The Food Will Accidentally Force You to Learn Cooking

I have mentioned earlier that some foods are overly spiced and taste like ointment. Well, it is surely horrible but you live in India where food poisoning is a tradition for some foreigners. Therefore, to avoid wasting money and risking your life, the option you have is making your own food. There are lots of advantages besides avoiding poisoning. By cooking your own food, you will save more money, your mood will be saved from Vicks Vaporub-in-the-curry, and indeed, your cooking skill will improve significantly.

You Will Always Remember to Go Back to Your Home Country

Some people find their new home after spending some years studying or working in foreign country. I have heard lots of such stories from my lecturers, teachers, friends who said how much they fell in love with the country they were studying or working at and they found it difficult to go back to Indonesia. Obviously, it is because they live in more advanced countries where the challenge is not including separating smelly herbs from your bowl of chicken curry, seeing a group of kids shitting by the railway or waiting for three hours to withdraw money. You may forget to go home if you stay in USA or France, but you are probably an insane Indonesian if you do not want to go back home after spending months here. My lecturer was right, the difficult time in India is not a poison, it is a cure that reminds you to your home.

I will have more to write once I spend more time in this Incredible Country. Until next time!

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Maddening Madness makes Incredible Country

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I have been keeping this for almost a half year. You wonder what ‘this’ is? The answer is fury.

Since last July up to June 2018, I will be staying in the one and only incredible country, India, to finish my study while at the same time wishing it could be done faster which is quite impossible. Well, I am a quarter way done anyway and I am not joking by saying I wish it could be done faster because they were right. My lecturers, my friends, everyone that gave me words of wisdom ARE right about this country. India is incredible in very frustrating way.

I always have very little expectation about almost everything, but this country has successfully triggered me to reach an unexpected level of my limit. I have written a list of what the seniors, lecturers, and everyone who have experienced the life in this country had ever said and then divided it into the ups and downs. Here they are as I remembered and how I found it true after several months of surviving:

It is better to start from the negatives so that we would have a good and happy ending for the conclusion.

  1. Lots of people do not like to use toilet

    I have known this ever since. Though I still keep the positive mentality in my mind, thinking lots of possibilities. Maybe only when they are far away from public places. Maybe there are not enough public toilets and so forth. Everything changed once I saw a group of men peeing right next to a public toilet. Well, maybe they just like it that way.

  2. When they say tomorrow, it means three days later

    and when they say next week, it means you probably have to come back next month. I have a Vodafone sim card that is still inactive and obviously useless after three complains to the store and they just shook their head like a dashboard doll in a car while kept promising me that the card will be activated tomorrow. Tomorrow never ends.Only that? Nope. The heater in my bathroom is broken, I have given up waiting for tomorrow that the electrician has promised me a month ago.

  3. If you are not get poisoned by the food, you are not cool, Mate!

    Thank God I am not cool. However, my friends here are super cool! Especially my flatmate, he hold the record of our batch by getting three food poisoning in five months. He even got diarrhea after consuming a well packed snack from supermarket.

  4. It is probably not poisonous. It just has the same ingredients as your ointment

    Seriously, it is overly spiced. You can feel Vicks Vaporub in your mutton curry. Enough said about food!

  5. Some people are racist

    I did not think so on my first three days here. I thought everything was normal until my third month. I realized the security treat us differently. Not only me but also my friends who have different physical features to Indians. I saw an Indian stranger who lived outside the campus may pass the security check but they keep checking event interrogating us as we are stranger. When I asked why don’t they remember the answer was simple: you and your friend look like Asians. WE ARE, SO WHAT?

Right then, I do not want to burn myself in fury. Now let’s see what’s good about this country.

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However, it is not relevant anymore if I share the good things here. The prompt says ‘Maddening’. Thus, those are the maddening madness that I have encountered so far. Next time will be about the good stuffs in India. Cheers. 

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Conundrum: The ENTP’s Point of View

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Familiar with that term? Or did you just checked your dictionary for definitions? 

If any of you look for the meaning in the dictionary, conundrum [kuhnuhn-druh m] means anything that puzzles or riddle. Therefore, if the word is taken literally, it will lead to wordplay, pun, riddle or anything that triggers us to think about answering or fixing the flouted rules. An instance of famous conundrum is the Sphinx riddle.

What is the creature that walks on four legs in the morning, two legs at noon and three legs in the evening?

Which was answered by Oedipus during his journey. Legend said that ever since the riddle was solved by Oedipus, Sphinx met his death and stop devouring the explorers who passed by.

Though it literal meaning has a very close definition to riddle, conundrum has another definition as a moral dilemma or difficult situation that people might face in their life. These kinds of conundrum are known as moral and practical conundrum. The two types include the absence of deciding whether something is right or wrong and the difficulties in choosing which one is better than another respectively. This post, will deliver some possible moral and practical conundrums that you might have or might not have ever thought before with some opinions from an ENTP.

The Robin’Hood

Everyone must be familiar with the tale of a guy who robs from the rich and then spreads the loots to the poor people. Imagine if this Robin’Hood guy was one of your friends and you figured out what he always did. What would your action be? Turn him or her to the authorities? Let him or her be for the treasures are distributed to the unfortunate ones? You might argue for this but I have my point of view.

Stealing, robbing or anything similar are obviously breaking the law.However in this case, the robber does not enjoy the loot he’s obtained but instead, he gives it to the ones who need it. I will say that I will let him be for awhile, warn him later and then if he refuses to stop, I will wait for the time to take a serious action once he starts to go completely evil. You have to keep in mind that most people who do heroic action by breaking the law may die as a hero or live long enough to turn into a bad guy

World War

It will be cruel to say thanks to everyone who participated in world war one and two but wait a minute, I said that as a person who lives in 21st century. Imagine living in the years of 1920s to 1940s, you would curse a lot and feel the insecurity in every minute of your life. Surely I would either if I imagine how horrible living next to battle field, preparing to evacuate to the nearest bunker or isolated mountain. That’s how it was back then, but how about now? Think as a person from this generation. Did we learn something from it? Yes we do. Did lots of us get something from it? Yes we DO. Now you want to revise my grammar for answering past questions in present form. No you can’t, because what we got and what we learned back then, are eternal. Some countries seized their independence, some others learned that war is a waste and peace should be maintained, making them more powerful and advanced than before. Without mentioning those countries, I would like to salute the people from the past and be grateful as the person from the present.

Death Sentence

You reap what you sow. The proverb is surely relevant to this controversial punishment. It should be noticed that death sentence is only enacted to they who commit serious crimes such as assassination, mass murder, massive illegal drugs distribution, and so forth.the impact of death sentence is very influential not only to the suspect who will obviously lose his life but also to the public for it might spread the fear of doing such criminal actions that may lead him to horrifying punishment. Some people find death sentence is unfair since it gives no chance for the suspect to amend his mistake in the past, turning him from a suspect into another victim while some others see the punishment is just and acceptable.  However, again, what if a close friend of yours has committed an assassination that made him sentenced to death. Would you defend your dearest one or stand by the justice?

Though many people think such kind of punishment is barbaric and ruthless, I would say that death sentence, to whom in may be applied, is fair enough since the punishment is only imposed to serious and worrisome criminals who commit particularly serious crime. The authority will not have any right to impose death sentence on a robber who snatch money from the cashier machine in Seven Eleven. Thus, as long as it is on track and not rashly implemented, death sentence is fine.

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We all know what happened at the end of the movie. Jack Dawson died sacrificing himself to let Rose survived. Cheesy, you may have said, but for some people, they prefer to die rather than seeing their loved one dies. How about you? Have you ever imagine that Jack is you, and Rose is your lover. You guys are on a very amusing trip when suddenly a fatal accident occur. Giving you two options: You live but you have to let your lover dies, or vice versa, you die and the loved one lives. Will you save him or her by giving up your own life or leave her?

My view about lovers and death is quite different. I would like to have a question regarding to this: Imagine you are in a very settle and happy relationship. You get married and live even happier. Now the question is: would you die first leaving your lover in a very depressing lonesome and lost or you would let him or her dies before you so they do not need to feel the loneliness and the pain of losing loved one?

You may think that I am rude, but I won’t let the person that I share affection with and I care about to feel the fear of losing and lonely. It is okay  for me if she dies leaving me behind. 

You may have different opinions about those stuffs I shared. Cheers.

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Pleasing ENTPs 101

Some weeks ago I described how to trigger the feeling of ENTPs and at some points how to make them upset. Now I am thinking. I am an ENTP and why in the world did I post a guide to make me upset? Like I will come to a group of people and with a strange smile asking them to ruin my mood? Thus, I am going to share how to please ENTPs easily. This is still related to how our feeling works.

Compliments

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We are, indeed, narcissistic. Thus, giving honest compliment will make our day. However, our responses are unusual. ENTPs will not directly accept the compliment by saying thanks or making any counter-compliment. Instead, we often sarcastically self-deprecate ourselves but deep inside we loudly shout: HELL YEAAAAAH I AM AWESOME. Here is an example of ENTP gets a compliment.

One day in a football game

INFJ: Hey, you did well, man. That was amazing goal.

ENTP: Nah, I saw a 5 year-old kid did better yesterday.

Implicature: I KNOW RIGHT, can you say that again?

Ideas

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This part related to how people should deal with ENTPs who are in trouble. The subtitle above includes: solutions, advises and opinions. ENTPs tend to come with tons of ideas which are mostly produced by the district in their brain called The Fictional Problem where most of the citizens are over-thinkers. However, though we are introvert thinkers, we gladly listen to any brilliant points of view and reasonable feedback from others. We appreciate any good ideas and solution through our problem more than we do to emotional supports. Therefore, instead of saying wise words or motivational speech, we would be happier if you come up with ‘what if…’ or any other ways that convey your ideas, solutions, and any doable plan.

Coffee (or anything with alcohol if they drink. Vodka, Champagne, whatever)

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In my case it’s coffee, black coffee. For Tony Stark, probably, vodka or any expensive champagne. However, it is serious! I mean, coffee is not a drink. It is a hug. If you have ENTP friends and they come with long face, say the magic words: ‘Do you want it black, with sugar, or creamer?’ (for coffee drinker) or say nothing but throw a can of cold beer to them (for the one who drinks alcohol). As simple as that.

Deep Conversations

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If any of you still think that ENTPs are reserved and quiet, then there is only one possibility: You are not ready for deep conversation and ENTPs know who to talk with. Exploring unrealistic ideas and thousand possibilities of the existence of aliens or wormhole that leads to the past are some of many favorite topics that we like to discuss. Should it ended in debate-sparing session, ENTPs will be happier. Losing it will make them respect their discussion partner, and winning the debate will pleased those ENTPs for sure. However, not all people can stand discussing such things for hours. So, are you ready to talk about bullshits and parallel universe?

Those are How To Please ENTP 101. Effortless aren’t they?

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ENTP: Sometimes the T stands for Troll and the P Stands for Psychopath While the E is probably Evil

Previously, I mentioned ENTP as the grey type of MBTI who cannot put a side to join the dark side or the bright side. They can be good companions to do noble actions such as charity or helping people in any kind of miserable situations but they are also ready to be your partner in crime, literally. As a fellow of mine said that ENTPs are easily shift or nicely said: We are adaptable. Thus, we stand between black and white which is grey. Later on, we can adjust the shade of grey that we need. Just remember one think that ENTPs rarely stand on the side where good guys who believe in justice stay. We are trolls and we like the idea of chaos sometimes. I have collected some data of fictional characters that portray ENTP. Most of them are anti-hero, annoying but witty protagonist, or even completely villain who also do surprising things. Here they are.

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Bugs Bunny!  He is, indeed, the King of Troll in Looney Tunes and he can be described as an ENTP with the shade of cloudy light grey. He has done lots of vicious and crazy stuffs to avoid and fight Elmer Fudd, the hunter, back. He does lots of pranks to outwit Elmer and puts him in trouble. Even if you watch the show closely, Bugs seems enjoy doing the pranks and such stuffs that may have killed Elmer Fudd. Thank God it’s cartoon. However, he does those things to survive. Who wants to be hunted, anyway?

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Is Deadpool a hero? No he is not. So, does it mean that he is a villain? Well, he is also not. He simply identifies himself as a bad guy, who hunts and kills the worse guys. Obviously, his pervert mind, dirty mouth, rotten avocado face, and his psychopathic desire to slice and shoot his enemies into pieces are out of heroic criteria. He is not everyone’s idol like Steve Rogers (Captain America), but he is also not interested in dominating the galaxy like Thanos. He naturally enjoy chaotic stuffs but he maximize his psychopathic passion to annihilate pathetic guys who try to mess with him or people he cares about. Talking about the shade, Deadpool is grey, just grey. By the way, I am interested in the book he is reading in the picture above.

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Garfield is an evidence of how annoying but adorable an ENTP is. Garfield often steals Jon’s meals especially if it is lasagna. No one can stop him to eat lasagna. However, despite his greedy appetite, his owner loves him and claims that Garfield is irreplaceable, not even by Odie. Talking about Odie, his friendship with Garfield is an example of how ENTP can be friend to almost everyone, even though his natural enemy. Well, similar to Bugs, Garfield earns the shade of cloudy light grey.

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Hades, son of Cronus, brother of Zeus and Poseidon, God of the underworld. Well, I should add: ‘The enemy of Hercules’ since the Hades that belongs to ENTP type is the one from Disney. Hades is one of many examples of how narcissistic an ENTP is. He, indeed, loves and admires himself. In many ways, he believes that he is better than his brother, Zeus and see Hercules as not more than filthy half-god creature. More than that, Hades is also witty and opportunist. He knows how to lure his enemy by summoning Megara to seduce our hero, Hercules, so he can easily capture him and neutralize his god-like power, turning Hercules into mortal. However, as always, villains are destined to be failed. After all, Hades is a shadow grey.

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‘Why fight when you can negotiate?’ Remember that line from this badass pirate? ENTP confirmed. Well, it does not mean he is never involved in any battle. He is a pirate anyway. He is a pirate and pirate is normally merciless and ruthless bad guy but look at him. He is one badass sociopath who chose the way of pirate. He kills, he steal, and he hijack ships but his negotiable trait proves that he is not standing on the dark side where most bad guys belong to. Jack Sparrow is a smoky grey.

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Responsible for dr. Harley Quinzel mental disorder and transformation into Harley Quinn, Murdering Jason Todd with crowbar, becoming a diplomat of Iran,letting his face skinned, breaking his own neck, even stealing kid’s report card for fun, Joker is a lunatic. If I would like to describe him as color, he might be charcoal grey. Why not pitch black for he is a crazy psychopathic nemesis of Batman?  It is philosophical, Charcoal is black, but it will turn into slight grey once it is burnt. Joker, however, have said that he will stop doing chaotic crimes if Batman stops fighting crimes. There we go, Batman is the fire that burn Joker as the charcoal.

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Saul Goodman is literally the devil’s advocate. Who is the devil he works for? Indeed, The Great Heisenberg a.k.a. Walter White! Saul is an attorney who helps many felons from assassin to drugs dealer who need legal aid or to cover up their crimes. He is not the bad guy who kills or sell drugs. He does not even use drugs but helping the number one meth chef in USA launder his money and cover all of his crimes by still having the image of flamboyant celebrity lawyer with hilarious TV commercial makes him earn the shade of silver.

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 ‘Genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist.’ That’s how he described himself when our friend, Captain America questioned who Tony Stark is without the Iron-Suit. Think about how cocky that statement was. However, Stark is the excellent example of how  arrogant ENTP is. His over-generosity is an accurate evidence of his arrogance, his talent in making lots of money and at the same time his inability in managing it. More than that, it also have brought several problems. Stark is generous, too generous that he often has no idea to whom he donates his money to. Sometimes, surprisingly, out of his control, the money goes to the bad guy. He is also hated by many people for his arrogant attitude. However, Tony is still one of the most heroic and badass superheroes. He is the silver guy. Shining on his arrogant heroic role. He saved the world from alien invasion, though!

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Heavy drinker, unwanted son, betrayed by his sister and his own father, ended up killing his father and set himself free to serve the mother of dragons. Tyrion Lannister, is a real badass and valid proof of this statement: Size does not matter. He even tamed the dragons of Daenerys Targaryen and became her Queen’s Hand to help the Mother of Dragons claiming the Iron Throne to rule seven kingdoms. Tyrion is a true debater and dangerous tactician. He is witty and does not mind to kill people who hurts him and anyone he cares about. Similar to Deadpool, he is not the nemesis of the series but he is also not the guy people easily like because of his heroic actions. Tyrion is pure grey.

In conclusion, all of the characters above are naturally sarcastic, witty, and uneasy to be liked. People mostly like the heroic characters while most ENTPs are not quite. Anyway, do you see your favorite fictional character(s) from my list?

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Neither Black nor White

What is your color? I do not ask your favorite color because it is cliche. I am talking about color that describes you, your personalities, your view about the world and what’s inside you. So, please think about it. Once more, not your personal subjective favorite color but a color that defines your personality and characters. I will start on behalf of my kind, ENTP.

Before I mention the color of my types, Let’s take a quick look to some traits that ENTP has based on my observation to myself, some fictional characters, some friends and some aliens out there.

  1. ENTPs hate to be controlled strictly. (Similar to ENFP)
  2. ENTPs do not like organized schedule.
  3. ENTPs have so many things that they are interested in but only a few that they can handle.
  4. ENTPs sometimes cannot finish what they have started.
  5. ENTPs are generally fast learners. (Similar to other thinker types)
  6. ENTPs are lazy as hell.
  7. ENTPs are easy to get along with. (Similar to any extrovert types especially ENFP and ESFJ)
  8. ENTPs are excellent conversationalist. (Similar to ESFJ)
  9. ENTPs are passionate and has thousands ideas about many things. (Similar to ESTP and ENFP)
  10. ENTPs are extremely sarcastic. (Highly similar to INTJ)
  11. ENTPs value friendships more than their relationships.
  12. ENTPs enjoy debate and hate losing an argument. (Similar to INTJ)
  13. ENTPs do not mind doing what common people assume as bad stuffs for the sake of better future. (Similar to INTJ)
  14. Honestly, ENTPs do not mind teasing or doing prank for fun. (Remember Joker?)
  15. ENTPs are generally not sensitive. Tend to be heartless in some cases. (Similar to INTJ).
  16. ENTPs often become emotional over ridiculous things. (Similar to ENFP)
  17. ENTPs secretly like cute animals. (Similar to any types with feeling as their dominant trait)
  18. ENTPs like to help others if they find it interesting no matter it breaks the moral value or not. (Take a look at Deadpool kick the pizza-guy’s ass in the movie to help the girl. More example: Saul Goodman from breaking bad, Tyrion Lannister from Game of Throne)
  19. ENTPs tend to idolize both heroes and villains because they agree to both side. (Look at Deadpool fan-boying Spider-man but at the same time working together with Magneto in some occasions)
  20. ENTPs find it difficult to put a side between good or bad.

Alright that is a long list up there. I could have added some more but I will save it for later. So based on the list, I will draw a quite long conclusion. ENTPs, as it has been discussed many times, are lazy but learn quickly. They have lots of ideas but cannot be consistent in finishing what they have started. They want a better world but they do not mind destroying the present world if it has to be so (some INTJs are laughing). All in all, I can say that ENTPs are grey. They are neither black nor white, neither hero nor villain. We stand on the middle between good and bad. So, when ENFPs or other feeler types feel insecure about their actions of hurting people or being too kind to people, ENTPs can only say: ‘Well, you know, you can hire me for both charity or deadly pranks. Chill.’ More than it, should any INTJ tells us his or her world domination plan we would be happy to listen and join as mercenaries. Cheers.

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The Danger Room

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Are you familiar with that empty room? If you have ever watched a movie that tells you about abnormal beings living together in a massive mansion where there are school and jet inside along with bald professor on a wheel chair, then you have ever happened to see that picture. If it is still not really clear for you, here is another hint.

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Now most of you might have recognized what Danger Room is, haven’t you? It is a huge simulation room where the mutants in X-Men practice to develop their abilities as mutants in the real battle situation. Usually there will be some senior mutants guide the younger ones during the training as you can see in the picture, there are Mystique and Beast with the young X-Men (Left to Right : Nighcrawler, Storm, Cyclops, Phoenix and Quick-Silver). The Danger Room is designed to have such super realistic sensation during the practice that you can feel the fear of dying and getting chased by The Sentinels. Now maybe I exaggerate it, but these two weeks, I think some of my professors are pushing us to the limit and I personally feels like they put us in Danger Room situation.

Never ending assignments of designing new techniques and developing some methods, daily presentations, reviews and so forth are coming endlessly. At first, it was totally normal to have one or two reports and presentations. Then I thought it would soon decreased, but once two papers’s done, there came other three out of somewhere! I am so triggered that I write another shitty twisted thought about this Danger Room analogy. Seriously, now, every time I enter the classroom, I imagine my professor as a gifted being who can read and control others’ mind and my friends and I as a noob young mutants seeking for clarity and wisdom in a room where your worst enemy will soon be summoned by the prof. The young mutants end up in a relentless regime of training that is painful yet effective. However, IT IS painful and it is not easy to satisfy the professor with our struggle.

I don’t know if either Charles Xavier, Hank McCoy or Raven Darkholme has a very high expectation that one of them find it difficult to appreciate the hard works of their disciples. Though my professors, some of them require us to think out of the skull to make them smile. Indeed, it is stressful. That’s one downs. However, I can say that with such force to accomplish many things at once, I unconsciously develop. Painfully develop.

Thus, like those young mutants in X-Men who frequently experience dying and extreme fear during simulation practice, I won’t stop though I suffer serious lack of sleep and worrying hair loss. In the end, these all will over and I will utilize what I have learnt during the Danger Room situation to make a better life for everyone. By the way, no offense, dear professor.

 

 

Posted in Contemplation, ENTP, No Offense, Random, Random Thoughts, Uncategorized

Forget and Figure Out

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Recently I re-watched Memento. A movie where Leonard, the protagonist, suffered short-term memory loss that made him unable to create new memory. Everything happened to him will soon to be disappear from his memory. This condition forced him to take notes every time he encountered something or met someone. However, at the end of the movie, there was a scene where Leonard burned one of the pictures that he took as an evidence of his accomplishment in avenging his wife, making him forgot that the person he hunted has been perished by himself. As the memory has lost and there was no evidence that the revenge has been paid off, he kept looking for the person who has killed his wife. A person that was no longer exist.

Memento is not the only movie that involves psychological thrills, especially the memory loss aspect, to force the viewers to think. Another one that is a little bit under-ratted is The Number 23. Some reviews describe the movie as clumsy, unengaging and confusing. However, that confusing part, triggered me.Walter Sparrow, the protagonist in  the movie came up with similar problem to Leonard: memory loss. The difference was Sparrow’s was unable to memorize what happened in his past but had no problem with the present time and making new memories. Despite the difference, both problems were similar: they forgot, completely.After watching, there was something hitting my thought while I brewed my coffee: What have we forgotten since we were born?

This thought of mine probably has no direct connection to the plot of both movies that I have taken as examples previously. However, the point here is the ‘forget’ part that suddenly triggered my curiosity after watching Memento for the second time.

Some people believe in after life as a period when we, human-beings, were born once, live for several years and no longer dwell in this world after the death comes and inhabit the other dimension where spirits, angels and demons live in. Shortly, we live once in this world, and move to another dimension after our death. The others, however, assume that there are previous life and next life in the same world that we live in now. The endless cycle that people know as reincarnation. Both, obviously, include the birth phase, either once or many times. The thing is, what if we have known everything before the parturition? Or for they who believe in reincarnation, what if they have known everything from their previous life but they just do not realize that they follow their intuition in the present cycle? What if we just forgot? What if we used to know when we will die, when we will get married, who our partner is, and so on? And what if the memories are actually hidden inside us but we do not know how to access it? Would you like to know when will you die and what happened before this lifetime?

Imagine someone hid a folder consist of an embarrassing secret of you that you have no longer remembered in your PC and he did not say anything about it. One day, you accidentally found that folder and slowly remembered everything. Now imagine the same thing in your memory but without PC. Imagine that you accidentally reveal your death in the future, probably via dreams, or just a convincing sudden thought. You slowly realize that it has been there ever since but you just did not realize it. It was a strange box that you have ignored since you were born and suddenly you opened it out of nowhere and found a surprising yet disturbing facts about yourself.

Now the question is what would you do next? Will you immediately confess and amend your mistakes in the past? Will you continue ignoring the revealed truth? Or will you cry in the corner of your room regretting what have happened so far in your life? I personally would probably be freaked out IF such situation happened to me. I would rather do not remember and try to do good things day by day. Keeping it as a mystery is the art of enjoying life. Well that’s my personal opinion though. After all, ENTP likes to talk bullshits. How about you? What if you remembered?

 

Posted in Hyderabad, India, Living Abroad, Random Thoughts, survival

Perspective and Expectation (part 2)

I have said lately, the way people see and expect something will influence their attitude. Big expectation will lead to disappointment if the reality does not meet. Instead, expecting less will be much relieving. You will feel jubilant if the reality is beyond your expectation, but if it meets your first assumption, no surprise and surely no disappointment.

Three weeks and counting. That’s the time I have spent in this incredible country. I mean it! India is incredible since I lower my expectation.

I didn’t expect to live in a dorm where everything is taken care by the university. I thought I have to pay the bill all by myself. Well , I don’t. I thought I will have to buy food everyday. Oh wait, there is kitchen here. I thought my university is literally surrounded by cows. Well, yeah once in a while. I think there is no such entertainment around. Wait, I watched Suicide Squad several weeks ago. Overall, I can say it doesn’t feel that bad. People were wrong about this country. Unless… I am just lucky to be in Hyderabad.

Because last week, I went to a city which was not really a city. It was more like a village with a very big university as its heart. If the university did not exist, so that the city. There was where I felt like in India that I have expected previously. It was full of cows complete with the pie, garbage everywhere, limited transportation, narrow road, and the worst: criminals. Well, once more. THANK GOD I AM IN HYDERABAD.

Overall, I cannot say I like to live far away from family, friends, and my comfort zone but I feel fine here. People should go out from their cave some day, looking for a new cave and so that until they die. So here is my new home, new cave, soon to be new comfort zone, and later to be a place I will miss.

P.S. I haven’t took many pictures

Posted in Hyderabad, India, Living Abroad, No Offense, Random, Random Thoughts, survival

Perspective and Expectation (Part 1)

It’s been a week and I get used to it surprisingly fast. I haven’t felt any massive culture shock that annoys me badly so far. Loud honks, crowded traffic, outstandingly ‘skillful’ drivers, crows caw every morning are some features I find everyday and the last one is actually my favorite.

I don’t know why but crows caw wakes me up better than roosters’. More, I also don’t know if it is only in Hyderabad or crows are massively spread everywhere all over the country. Either way, thanks crows. You will save my ass just in case I will have class in the morning later.

Another ‘music’ to my ears here is honk of every vehicle. Normally, you hear people honk at each other during crowded traffic. Here, they also honk to tell people when they will turn or go. So a driver who is about to turn left will honk while the others who hear the honk will also honk at that guy who is about to turn left. If I get 1 rupee for every honk that I hear in this first week, I could have bought a new iPhone. Well, at least the honk helps me to avoid a fatal accident caused by their ‘skillful’ driving skills.

I will share more about how Indian people amaze me and confuse me at the same time. Lastly for now, the less you expect, the wider your perspective will be.

 

P.S. : Next post will contain pictures.

 

 

 

Posted in Characters, Confession, ENTP, MBTI, Personality, Random Thoughts

What’s in (My) ENTP Head

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So I found this interesting picture in the internet recently. It was originally posted by someone in reddit but reddit is blocked in my country, so technically I took it from google. Thanks for anyone who post this illustration of what’s inside the brain of ENTP. Thus, I will try to elaborate how accurate is the illustration to my own mind because, I am an ENTP anyway!

Normally, people start from the biggest part, the most dominant. Per contra, I will start from that small red part at the bottom.

Grumpy Thoughts About Everything

Grumpy sounds bad but sadly it is true, at least for me. ENTPs, including me, sometimes see the world as a miserable place. After all, it is called as ‘grumpy thoughts’, so I do not always utter it. Instead, I often just grumble inside my mind, and stay calmly cool outside. There are some grumpy thoughts which commonly hit my mind in several situations.

  1. Durian smells bad. Moreover it is more suitable to be used as a melee weapon. Just look at those spikes!
  2. Some females in my country need driving lessons. They turn on the left turning signals and start taking over from the right side of the road.
  3. What’s the point of sticking family stickers with everyone’s name on the rear part of car? You love your family? No.. you try to attract kidnappers.
  4. Kids fashion show is a total exploitation. They ain’t doll.
  5. Smokers who smoke in public places should swallow the whole smoke ..And the cigar butt as well.

 The list won’t over if I continue. Anyhow, we are NOT carried by grumpy  thoughts all the time. It only hits our mind when we have a bad mood or something goes really bad.

Just Smile and Say Yes so They Do not Realize You are not Listening 

That green part explains how ENTPs think about other people’s feeling. It is difficult for me to focus and it is so easy to distract me. Thus, when I smile and say yes while I have no idea about what people are talking about, I never mean it. I am just simply get distracted by something else. Another possibility is an introvert thinker problem: I am busy with my own thoughts. However, no worries! I will listen more carefully once it comes to something serious.

Narcissistic Thoughts

I disagree with this one. This part, for me, does not work as it should be. My thought about myself is more likely sarcastic and grumpy (I know that red small at the bottom should be bigger) than narcissistic. When someone throw me a cheesy compliment saying how cool I am that day or I look fresher or blah blah blah, my response are usually snappy yet funny.

  1. I know right? I am cool! Sometimes I think Sub-Zero is my ancestor. Ha-ha.
  2. Yeah, finally I am no longer zombie. Fresh and lively!

At least, they usually laugh.

Self-Critical Thought

Critical thinking is ENTPs special trait. I couldn’t agree more with this. Moreover, thinking critically about myself is something that I do almost all the time. Thinking about my weaknesses, things that I have done, things that I haven’t done, my purposes, my dreams, things that I have to improve, my existence and the one that I hate, my death. I think everywhere and anytime randomly. Toilet, during a movie, in the middle of teaching, on my way to somewhere, under a tree and when eating are several self-critical thinking sessions that I have almost everyday. 

What  If…

This one is my favorite. Besides thinking about self-improvement and contemplating existence, impossible thoughts and phantasies are what I imagine all the time.There will be endless list so I will choose some most intriguing thoughts of mine.

  1. According to the holy books and history books, people in the past live longer than now. What if they actually didn’t live any longer than us? Their hundreds year old age was caused by shorter period of time, which means our Earth rotated and revolved around the Sun faster in the past. What if we get slower?
  2. Still related to thought number one, If it gets slower by the time, will our Earth stop rotating and revolving later? What if it is not only happening to Earth but the whole galaxy? 
  3. In the past, touch screen was part of science fiction. What if what we categorize as science fiction now is going to be scientific in the distant future?
  4. Talking about sci-fi, what if someone has built time machine in the future but he/she failed on his/her first attempt when traveling to the past and trapped there till the end of his/her life?
  5. Our age is relative based on what calendar do we use. I might be younger, or older than I should be.

Puns and Jokes

  • Can eel and eagle hang out? No because It’s eel-eagle!
  • I think vampire won’t ever hunt Taylor Swift, because she has bad blood. 

I can relate this. Puns and jokes are something that randomly and sometimes unconsciously come out of nowhere. However, it does not always work. Sometimes I am not sure if my joke is cheesy or people do not really get it or the situation is not right. In spite of the possibility of failing, ENTPs are natural random pun machine. Wait, is that why I adore Deadpool so much?

Credible Bullshits and Real Arguments

Why do I combined them? When an ENTP is involved in a debate, which he obviously enjoy,  he will mix his real arguments with bunch of reliable hogwash. ENTPs are resourceful and witty. Their Introverted thinking allows them to develop and improve information  that they have into multiple arguments and … bullshits. Reliable one, though. Therefore, debating and being involved in an argument are several things that an ENTP enjoys the most. Sometimes, those rascals trigger the argument or the worse one: they debate themselves with credible bullshits and real arguments.

Imaginary and Fictional Problems VS Real Problems

I couldn’t agree more. I sometimes worry more fictional problems like robot apocalypse and alien abductions rather than my real problems in my REAL life.Angry boss? Annoying colleague? Grumpy crush? Broken stuffs? Sure those will ruin my day but I will quickly move on and find solutions for each. On the other hand, thinking about serial killers, mutated animals, super genius hackers who will creep into my systems and other phantasies will freak me out more. I think this imaginary fictional problems part is highly related with the ‘What If…’ part. They form strong relationship and occupy my brain with random intriguing thoughts about something that actually do not exist, distracting me to slowly forget my real problems. My brain betrays me!

Anyway, it also brings some benefits to me. My thoughts is full of fictional scenarios complete with the characters. I am going to write a story soon enough. Maybe in another blog. 

Alcohol and Coffee

Well I do not drink alcohol but coffee.. Nothing is better than black coffee with no sugar in the morning, especially the local one. Starbucks favorite? Pitch black Americano, sometimes the iced one.

Interesting Ideas and Projects (Later)

As I have told you previously, ENTPs are resourceful. We often pop up with incredible ideas and plans about projects but we often too lazy to start and end up procrastinating. In my case, it is more disturbing. I have the idea but I am lazy to start then several hours later, I will worry about having not enough time to finish everything while I am still too lazy to start. Just like the one that I have mentioned above, the story. I said that I will start soon enough but here, I will spell it to you: I DON’T KNOW WHEN TO START.

Well, enough confessing for now. Please share if you experience the same. Catch you later!

 

Picture Credit: Reddit